My beloved is in His garden

Being tied for a long time, wondering here and there without admitting it’s the 3^rd or 4^th year around the same mountain, yet seeing no spark of a way out, is the meaning of being in the wilderness for some years.

Do you have the list of moves you said yes to Jesus? What is happening to all those moves? Have you reached completion for all those? If so, then revisiting those spiral circles won’t bother you much.  

For ease of completion, I divided the spiral stair climbing into a few reachable specific objectives. Completion of those reachable milestones makes one move to a new level that has its new devils to face. Completion of the previous spiral stair taught us something. Being complicit in being there bring new challenges from the next quest. So, we need 2 things. One is proactive and pushing forward, forgetting the previous victory. A kind of victory over Jericho is no guarantee of winning Ai.  Plus, willingness to have a new angle from the 4^th spiral stair and go back to the first to correct the mistakes made there.

This order re-order over and over again will only make us radical disciples and have firm steps for our future journey.

Now the rules of moving forward.

1.       Primarily, what is your method of overcoming any sin you see in yourself? How long are you spending around that mountain, finally doubting whether my old man is dead or am I still carrying a dead body behind my back?

Friend, happy news. Jesus won’t lie. If He includes us in His death and resurrection, we, our old man, are dead. And our new man is resurrected. How much it is a reality for Jesus, that much it is a reality for us 2023 years ago.

Are you begging God to re-do what He already accomplished for us or do you have the too-good-to-be-true news spreading in and true you?

Here comes the first key to open the first quest. We call it Dr. Foo’s prayer edited accordingly for my challenge.

The prayer has few specific teachings in it. Once the holy Spirit enlightens us, we can see how favored we are.

a.       Thank You Father for showing me flesh or old pattern of behaviors.

b.       I chose not to save myself, but I let You take control of my situation.

c.       Count who you are in Christ, your positional righteousness, till it fills you up and flows from the inside out.

Currently, I am suffering from a trigger that pushes me to emotional eating. Even if I hate to be an emotional being, I thank God for the unknown trigger that pushes me and takes control of my actions, and brings me to the point of eating. How should I have to tackle it?

Well, I will thank God each time I eat and tell myself, I am not going to move even my picky to change, situation but going to thank my Saviour who saved me. Foolishness, right? Gospel is foolishness to wise, something that frustrates wise. Rest, you will read from the book The Overcoming Life by Watchman Nee…

Secondly, you know it… if you want to hear from me, wait till I write about it. Let’s sit on His bosom, walk with the Holy Spirit as His love slave, and stand against our fallen enemy, satan. 

My beloved is in His garden. I am His garden. He said that He will never leave me nor forsake me. He is not a son of man to lie. He might have withdrawn from my feelings, so that, I might leave the luxury of staying inside my comfy self-righteous cushion, to make me look for Him again. I might have been beaten up by the watchman of the walls for losing my beloved after knowing Him so intimately. All these drills are just to make us realize that He never left His garden, my heart, but only wanted the love to be awakened for a deeper search for Him. 

We know the way, do we?

The greatest rejection a Christian can ever go through is the rejection from the Church. Once a person turns to a Christian one of the main purposes of his or her life is to find their place in the body of Christ. Whether we like it or not, Jesus is coming for His church, not for individual people scattered here and there. Our existence and growth, our true purpose, and everything are found in the body of the Church.

At times, we might drift away for seasonal conflicts or because our obedience to the Lord forces us to do so. In such cases, we should know how to part for a particular season and then find our way home.

A question kept coming to me, “aren’t they using me???”. When waves of the sea hit us we should realize that our church life is similar to the journey Rebecca went to see Issac on a camel. We can imagine what it would be like traveling through the wilderness on a humpy camel. Getting a people choice award is not an option once we cross over our honeymoon time with the Lord. We’d be busy in a purpose-driven life. And our purpose can bring misunderstandings and conflicts. But how we tackle all those help us to adhere to the Church life, Bethel, than rejecting the goodness and power in it.

In this let’s consider a few matters.

How to prioritize my vision and get along with other brothers and sisters, if the majority is going in a different direction than mine? Whether to cut off when the “they are using me” call hit my boat? Importance of handling rejection and How to handle it? How to fly on top of the wind?

Well, knowing one’s specific calling is not a day job. I know a quiet few people who knew the purpose of their life the day they met Jesus as their savior. That does not apply to the majority. we serve others and assist others and one day realize what we are called to do is the story of the majority of people. We read the situation of the Madian in the book of Songs of Soloman who forgot to take care of her vineyard because her mother’s sons made her take care of their vineyard. Have we ever been put in forced labor by our mother’s sons?

We know that Joseph had only one brother through his mother and 10 brothers through his father. From the story, we know the difference between our mother’s sons and our father’s sons. We usually expect hardships from our father’s sons and it hardly affects us since the value we put on their opinion is comparatively lower than the value we put on our mother’s sons. Since such a scenario is mentioned in the word of God, being used by one’s mother’s sons, we should consider it in prayer on how to tackle it when it happens.

In my experience, my mother’s sons had two kinds of anointings. One group had a Moses anointing and the other, Joseph. When I was nearing a decision making, God offered me both and asked me to pick one for myself. My choice was the third one and I decided to stick on with that. God agreed to enable me by His grace to pull it through by asking, “the cost for what you asked is paying the price of both Joseph and Moses.” Since grace enables me, I didn’t find a reason to back out.

If we have to help someone to the extent of getting an appreciation from an eternal point of view, we must first get captivated with that vision and anointing. There are times, people called me, “doormat” because they felt I was getting used by my mother’s sons. How much ever I tried to convince them that I was doing my part in the body of Christ, they couldn’t understand my angle. So I respectfully but sternly told them to back off from my path and I moved on.

When it hit your boat, how will you handle it? The answer is, do not cling to your right to yourself. Throughout the journey of working in your brother’s vineyard, practice the value of the sermon on the mount.

See things from God’s point of view, each time I practice the values mentioned in the sermon on the mount, he is finding the vessel he is looking for. I am getting shaped by all the twists and turns in that journey when my brother’s vineyard gets better shaped. So, it’s a win for both parties.

Where can one find closure in working one’s brother’s vineyard? while I will say, you know it when you know it because of the new covenant God made with us, we all know. Our born-again spirit knows. At times, our feelings claim, “it is enough for me… I am done…” in such scenarios, I suggest, “you walk two miles with someone who asks you to walk a mile with them”.

How will we cut this thin line of separation? A nugget from Dr. KO John, check whether you are sharing someone’s vision or their load of sin. Know your brother’s vision and help him/her but never carry the load of his sin. How will one understand the difference between these two? Your born-again spirit knows, still, pray. You will know. He will let you know. His burden will be easy and light. The moment we cross over the restrictions under the yoke of the Holy Spirit and try to help someone as if we love them more than Jesus loved them, we will know the difference in the weight of the yoke.

So, the two cases in this journey are one, the pain of our transformation since ministry is the transformation of the minister. Second, how not to be used by satan while we work in our brother’s vineyard.

Let’s talk briefly about how to clean the gutter of our life during this journey. I read God’s Remedy for Rejection by Derek Prince and re-consider my life. Revisiting our life chapters again and again periodically helps us stay washed. A word you heard from the stage, hit your head like a hammer, what would be your reaction to it? Let me tell you, I will write it down and pray, “Lord, why those words pricked me? Is there any foreign body staying inside my heart to respond to it and hurt me?” a periodic gutter cleaning is needed for any worker of the Lord the stay alive even they are in the center of God’s perfect will for their life.

Whatever we do, there is no guarantee that the others will drive according to the rules. Once a local church gathered a meeting and decided that they are not participating in my father’s funeral. Only a few willing hearts came to help us out in our time of trouble. I was asked by a pastor not to come to church 3 or 4 times repeatedly. He never gave me a proper reason for my question, “why?”

How will one handle it and still have the choice to be unconditional because he or she is also a blood-bought member of the family? Well, we should never pull a pity party but hit the throne room and get soaked by the love of Jesus for us. Once filled with His love, it overflows eventually. The law of the life of Christ Jesus in me won’t let me stay the same. Nothing can stop us from loving someone if we are connected to the source, Jesus. What others did or didn’t won’t affect our actions if we won’t let it happen. To handle rejection, we don’t need to know the reason for which they rejected us. We can still forgive them because the forgiveness of the Father flows in and through us.

This is where someone asked me where will we stop being a doormat. The answer is very simple, reconsider the objectives of our vision. When right and wrong pull and push from both sides, keep your eyes on your vision. Keep reachable milestones. When the wind toss, focus on fulfilling those objectives in prayer and trust in the One who called you. One day, we too could say, “I am unoffendable”.

After you did everything from your side and still your brother is the same old mean person who wants to cut you off without giving you a reason, then, pray for him or her. If you have read the book “God’s remedy for Rejection”, you know that defensiveness is a part of being hurt by something else, and it's just convenient to take it on you.

Relationships should be initiated, maintained, and fulfilled by God. Stay away from situations not initiated by the Lord, you can stay away from being hurt by people who act out their emotional outbursts for their lack of fellowship and prayer.

Next is the hurts from otherness practiced by a well-known person. I would call it problatunity. A well-known person with a team of his own can fight against one feeble human with all their networking skills and strategies. But always understand that it demon intimidating you through people and if you walk with God, one you is enough to fight all those till you see His Kingdom coming true in this world not only in its power but in its richness. 

 

A fight just to fail

There, the valiant man, whom I waited for years to meet with, singing with tears, “Ascribe greatness to the Lord of God; Your name is faithful, and all Your ways are just. You’re the God of faithfulness and without injustices; Great and upright is He…”

He bowed down and worshiped God singing it again and again.

The only thing I knew was that I was next in line, and I would be going to the wilderness to have a candlelight dinner with my beloved till He says, “you’re ready…”

Within days the valiant man bounced back and announced that he is not going out without a fight. I never understood what he was planning to fight for because fighting against the hands of the potter while we are on his wheels, is not a good idea.

His him-seer cheered him up saying, “the strength of a boxer dependents on how fast he bounces back”.

His she-seer told me, “Seer’s job is like that of a postman. Deliver the letter and go on. What the recipient did with the letter or what the content of the letter is not a postman’s job…”

I was busy with my journey to the wilderness and staying detached for 8 years was not an easy thing to do. I didn’t notice how much the Repairers wanted me to vanish finishing the job of a postman. at that point, the advice seems wise since I wouldn’t be here for 8 years. What’s the point of checking what the recipient did with the letter? So, I moved on to my seer’s adventures.

The valiant man came to my land and captured my home and 8 neighboring countries and conquered and started to push me out from my own nest. He said, “now you can leave, everything is under my control.”

For my next adventure, I went to the fortress of the valiant man. A valiant man, one day, came against me with an imaginary javelin to left without piercing it in me saying, “if I want, I can kill you, but I leave you…” as if my life was given as an arm. He tried to kill everything that resembled me. But I felt like he was having a shadow fight.

My frozen brain was not favoring me to read everything together. And his fight on the potter’s wheel against the potter went beyond my 8 years of wilderness. None of his tactics helped him. 12th year, a friend of mine came and knocked on my door for food for her guest. I hesitated to open the door and provide her with what she was asking me for. But her relentless knock won.

While helping her, I recognized that the Beloved is in His garden and slowly left the wilderness life and walked homeward. 

While I got in the boat and sailed back, my heart was singing,

Aue, aue. We are explorers reading every sign. We tell the stories of our elders in a never-ending chain. Aue, aue; Te fenue, te malie; Na heko hakillia; we know the way.

After almost 4 years of rebuilding my speed force, picking up my shield and armor, and fighting the good fight of ‘the’ faith, I stand in awe of the Almighty who never changes His covenant to His servants. His word is yes and amen from infinity to infinity. 

The Sleeping Beauty

The kind had two daughters and the youngest Princesses once was tempted to steal the birthright from the elder one when she realized that God will bless the elder one with a double portion of everything for the elder one.

 Do you know what the double portion is? Have you read Tenali Raman's stories? Tenali was offered by the goddess a portion of wisdom and a portion of richness and was asked to choose between the both. Tenali, a naturally wise man, took both the portion and drank. First, the goddess got angry. When she heard his explanation, she calmed down and blessed him.

The princesses who loved stories knew that double potion means, one could stay close to her God, a close friendship with the Lord. So, like Jacob, Issacs’s youngest took a piece of cake to allure the elder one. The elder one refused to it complained to the father. As the youngest one was walking home, God told the younger one, “if you choose not to cheat, I will you what you are looking for and a better friendship with your sibling.” So, she decided not to try to cheat anymore.

One day as the younger-one was studying in her father’s palace, a piece of news struck them. A grandpa king passed away. May his soul rest in peace. She went to the funeral with her father. The chariot was filled with people who kept saying the tales of the stories of the passed-away king. As she returned from the funeral home, she went to her prayer closet to ask God, “Lord, how can you call him home without blessing me?” God replayed, “I will keep someone on behave of him to bless you. When you grow up to walk on your own without the accompaniment of your father, I will lead you to him and he will bless you on behave of the passed away king”.

Years passed by and both the princesses had their special adventures and they were formed to be what they were meant to be. In the fullness of time, the younger-one was prompted to go to the castle where the old saint was waiting for her to bless her. After reaching there only she realized the old saint was blind. She cried to the Lord, “nothing I learned all these years equip me to face an old saint. What will I do?” she was asked by the Lord to wait till the old saint hears from the Lord and call her by his side.

As she was waiting, she made friends and brothers and sisters of different kinds and attar. A year or some, she played a piece of music on her father’s favorite instrument, the violin, in the presence of all others in the palace. Among other instruments, the voice of the violin was heard louder by the ears of the blind saint.  The old saint sent his daughter to bring the younger-one to him. The moment she was waiting from the day she stepped in arrived. She ran to the grandpa and the old saint blessed her with a word from the holy scrolls.

After a while, the grandpa passed over to meet with God face to face. She couldn’t stay in that palace anymore and she decided to take off, hunting for new adventures. But those projects didn’t go well so she returned to the old palace she left, the palace without the grandpa waiting for her.  

This time, she made a plan to overcome her running feet. She engaged herself in a project that would cause her to learn and help her to be proactive. She became the disciple of the master, Law. Thus, she overcame her running feet. she was growing up the place provide her with everything she needed for her growth. One day, after one of her meetings with her guild, her teacher, she realized the expiration date for her learning adventure was nearing. And she slowly went to see the king who guided her to reach the old grandpa and told him that she should be sent off. But they couldn’t send her off, the one they taught all those years, just like that. The king was not aware of the hurricane that was coming up and only she could find a way out from it for herself and other brothers and sisters of her. Not everyone believed in her except the minister in charge. He told her, “Do what God is asking you to do.”

On one hand, she was finding ways to face the hurricane and on the other hand, the next chair of the wise-men was getting ready for her. The big adventure only she could nail called her louder than the duties she owed to the palace she grew up in. It was a tough decision to adhere to what she was born to do. As always, she went to the Lord in prayer for her way out from between those two choices. God told her, “I will do something and the people who are asking you to be enthroned on the wise-men’s chair will let you go.”

A tiny little demon reached the palace and bad-mouthed the younger princes and the majority fell into its spell. The doors of the palace guarded by the servants of the Law, let her go. As the grip on the princess was lifted, she realized that the army of the hurricane of darkness reaching and grabbing her brothers and sisters in the palace. She started to see that she should go to the castle of the darkness to kill the hurricane king before it could swallow the whole earth.

She walked to the eye of the danger and stayed there for three pulse years, killing different kinds of angles of darkness associated with the hurricane.

One day, another king from a distant palace saw a vision and informed the younger princess. He saw her falling into a sleep and others carrying her in a coffin to burn her alive. He fought against those who carried the coffin of the sleeping beauty. But the princess didn’t wake up nor did the people who carried her in the coffin back off from their mission of destroying her. He asked her, “why you didn’t wake up even after I fought for your life that long?”

She replayed, “what is the point of fighting? Will fighting make them stop? If not let’s stop fighting them”.

After visiting the seer king, the princess went to her place and continued how to fight the hurricane eye with wisdom. She slowly started to realize the intensity of the problem. She called for her elder sister and they together talked out their idea of bringing all the coffin carriers under the temple of the hurricane eye. If all of them gather in one place, the mighty King could push the pillars of the temple and kill all the coffin carriers. As days went by, the project, “kill the younger princess” turned out to be “project sleeping beauty”.

As the seer king prophesied, the younger princess went to a night of sleep. Princess used her secret weapon of being in different places at the same time to divert the attention of the coffin carriers. She received the weapon when she was in the presence of her Lord encountering an argument before she went to see the blind grandpa.

With the help of that weapon, she could fight the hurricane master’s demon army and sleep in the coffin at the same time. One day, she felt she equipped everyone and are ready to go home and the win was her’s even if she was absent. She told her father that she was planning to go home to be with her Lord. The old king couldn’t think of living on the earth's surface without her daughters. He told her, “You stay, I am getting prepared to go home since you were six months old, and let me go”. The old king made her daughters promise him certain things and got ready to go home.

After the father passed over, the younger princess was pushed out of the castle of the hurricane master. The running feet grabbed her and she ran away to a far-off island. The island was calling her for a while and she made responding to that call her priority. She was building her new life there, forgetting the hurricane. but the ripples of the hurricane master started to nag her again even on the island. Her mother called her home asking her to stay home for a while than befriending the running feet. The younger princess came home pausing the call of the island. The hurricane eye was waiting for her in her land. As one-half of her was sleeping inside the hurricane master’s castle she could do nothing when princess Merida send her reports of the land.

As the younger princess and princess Merida started to unwind their stories to each other, they addressed so many matters they both saw in their special ventures. After a while, the younger princess told princess Merida, “Up to this point I will help you with the matters you addressed me, and from a particular point on, I will be looking at how to get back on my feet”. She meant her own union with the sleeping beauty, a part of herself.

After three years and so the younger princess went to fight against the hurricane master and regained herself at the end of the war and started the new adventure she dreamed of from her childhood.

(Outline of a future novel by Nithya Rajan) 

Twinkle Twinkle Little Star… How I wonder what you are!

In 2005, when God told me that He was going to erase stuff from my memory, I knelt and said, “as you say but one…that you love me.”

Life was not easy after that process in 2007. At times my memory comes and goes, a frozen brain for hours. Once in a conversation, someone suggested that I should pray in tongues on such occasions. I agreed because I realized that they won't understand the stage of forgetting even to pray in tongues and should be reminded by God, “nithya, pray in tongues…”

In my language, which part in, “my brain gets frozen for hours”, you didn’t understand???

At times, better let people win the argument. Not because they are right but because it doesn’t worth a fight.

A brother of mine said once, “Some seasons, better keep quiet. We talk just to pile up misunderstandings”. So true. Most of my conversations with people turned out to be handing over the weapon to people who wanted to kill me.

What I should remind myself is this? How much I wanted to be the gold, experience His power of resurrection in every area of my life? Am I on a progressive path from that angle?

It's been years since I am in that path. Never felt like comparing my experience to the thorn in my flesh and getting complacent. A step by step journey to the promised exit He had destined for me. I heard stories of people who went through terrible situations than mine. Testimony gives birth to testimony. 

God with a plan.

God created man as His friend not because He felt lonely. He is perfect and lacked nothing in Himself. He was not looking outside, thirsting for companionship but He was a person with a plan. The omnipresent, omniscient, omnipotent God, on a good day, decided to befriend one of His created beings. Who is there to question God in His theocracy? And as part of His plan, He created man in His image. This plan about mankind came into existence before the foundation of the world.  

For five days, God was busy creating the planet earth. Day one, light and separating light from the darkness. It’s fun to define darkness as the absence of light but for that, He first separated the both. Still, I am not sure how it was before He separated the light from the darkness. Where its borders were lied and where it merged? A concept hard for me to comprehend.

Usually, I quote something from the life of King Solomon since he had forty valiant men to fight the fears of darkness, “have a fiery chariot, if you don’t have forty valiant men around you, like Elijah”.  

I love to think like this, God the God of all lights, separated the light from the darkness for our convenience. What else is the logical explanation for that darkness hid from his presence and appears as He goes? If He didn’t do the separation process, it will be a Dewali when He comes and a power cut when He goes. That’s what I understood. Not sure of the exact science behind it. Now, you discuss.

After the separation, there came the evening and the morning, the first day.

God created the heavens and the earth, the evening and the morning, and the third day.

Now comes the separation of the water from the water and a piece of land in the middle. He called the dry land, Earth. So, I retract my early comments concerning the naming of our planet. The name came before the branch of science for naming stuff came into existence.

Let me put it into perspective for my clarity, God divided water from the waters, now, two sets of water bodies. Then He created a ferment and called it heaven. End of the second day. Then He commanded the waters to gather together and the dry land appeared. He called the dry land Earth and the water body the sea.

The evening and the morning were the second days.

He created grass and all kinds of vegetation and its fruits and seeds. The problem concerning the food and accommodation was solved.

The evening and the morning were the third days.

Then He hung lights in the ferment, the space, to divide the day from the night, for signs and seasons; for days and years.

God made two great lights; the greater one to rule the day. To rule, chills, right? When God says stuff, it has a God style in it, “to rule”. Let it sink.

A night lamp for the night, we all know how the lunar calendar works and we count seasons based on that. He set all other stars, the near and far ones. The evening and the morning were the fourth days.

Then He created air and water creatures, the fowl that may fly above the earth, and every creature that moves in the water. Just like the dry land, the waterbody also got populated. God blessed them to multiply and reign. The evening and the morning were the fifth days.

So, after re-creating earth and its inhabitance within five days, God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit created man in His image. He took clay in His hands and molded man and breath into his nostrils. And the man turned out to be a living being. When the breath of God entered into him and he became alive, two things were formed, man’s spirit, as He breathed, and his soul. Let me put it this way, when God the triune, created man, man had a spirit, a soul, and a body. He couldn’t create anything less once He said to Himself, “Let Us create man in Our image, after Our likeness”.

So, what is the image of God? A triune image.

And God saw everything that He had made and He saw it as very good. And the evening and the morning, the sixth day.

On the seventh day, God rested from all the work which He had made.

The Mystery

The story of jealousy and cunningness started here. God created angles and divided them into different teams according to their functions. Various people believe differently. Some say seven angelic armies, some, three. I don’t want to believe either, instead, I love to cling to that mystery till I reach heaven. Good to have some unknown hidden mysterious stuff waiting for me to unveil when I reach there. Where? There. Curious but straightarrow and interesting enough.

Gaby and Mic are two archangels, we know for sure, as we read the bible. Gaby is the leader of the messenger army; you know it visited Mary the mother of Jesus with a special messenger from God. Mic is the one who helped Gaby when Daniel the prophet in the Old Testament was waiting for an answer to his prayer.

I love this world of reality where angles come and go from God's presence to see humans, and demons fighting with all their might but miserably failing in the end. It is good to see they trying.

Lucy is another character we cannot let go of from our conversation. Lucy, once an archangel, was the leader of Heaven’s worship team. When he lifted his feathers, music flew. He thought of sitting on God’s throne and becoming God.

As he kept thinking of that and plotting it out, he influenced a few other angles and succeeded to keep on his side. Let’s call it trance made by Lucy. So, Lucy and the angels who were in his trance decided to fight and take over God, and the angels who didn’t fall in his trance. With one blow from the Almighty, poor Lucy fell down from the third heaven, and his feathers were cut off.

Lucy later came to be known as satan and the fallen angels in his trance, as demons.  They needed a new strategy.  Surprise, surprise, networking is what they came up with. It’s no biggy, demons keep a networking channel for organizing and attacking all God’s plans. Their archnemesis is God, not us. Till today, they are free to come and go, even, stand before the Almighty and have a chit-chat with God. The way God deals with His enemy surprised me. Maybe because the omniscient, omnipresent, who knows alpha to omega hardly consider them as His nemesis.

One day they will be banished from, I don’t know, the universe! That’s what we named this space, right? After grandpa Adam fell, eating from the forbidden tree, I am not sure whether the names we call are what is universally accepted. Fingers crossed.

Our focus is not on any of those matters. Our center of attention is Adam who ate from the forbidden tree and how God who never fails, reached out to Adam and brought His plan, which satan tried to distort, back on track.

How many of you know that the earth was given to Lucy as its home planet? Once the earth was given as his inhabitance. As God cast out Lucy and his army, the earth turned formless and void, most probably after a sequence of events. God’s Spirit was hovering over the formless planet which we call earth. I love this characteristic of God. He never abundant His plans. If He started, He knows how to maintain and bring it to completion. He cannot compromise His faithfulness no matter what.

At times of hopelessness, when I felt I reached the end of the road because of the lack of insight, one prayer I love to mutter is, “Thank You, Daddy, for hovering over me, Your pet project.”

That part, what all happens when His Spirit hovers over a formless, shapeless, meaningless thing or situation, is also a mystery for me. And I chose not to know till I reach heaven. Good to hang on to the mysterious tread of a storyline.

After a period of time, not sure of the year length, I think, even God is not concerned about that since He is beyond the time parameter, God re-created the formless earth. He put the solar system and hung the beautiful earth in it. He placed time parameters and a whole lot of constraints, like gravity, the stuff Isaac Newton proved, etc, etc. You know what I am talking about.

Another beautiful phenomenon that perplexes me is servants like lightning bolts getting released for heaven’s treasury and reporting back to Him, "Here we are”. I love those last chapters of the book, Job, where God brags about how things are around Him. Things that mum any human. He frustrates the wisdom of the wise indeed. The moment of goosebumps to know that I am His precious child whom He dearly loved. A masterpiece of an awesome God. A unique poem in His special collection. Like in Moana, I am the heart of “Te Fiti”, without me, He can’t. He is a helpless captive of my purple hair lock. Some say, “Nithya, you are proud”. But my spiritual father told me, “Being what you are is not pride”.